Loss.

This post is not about running. It is about something far greater than that. Exactly one week ago, I lost my grandfather. In the words of my cousin, “They don’t make men like my grandfather anymore…strong, handsome, hard-working, and stoic- in the best sense of the word.”

He was a self-made man that didn’t make excuses; he simply worked hard, learned his way, and found success. He had a wife who he loved with his whole heart for 65 years. He had 4 daughters, 1 son, 16 nieces and nephews, and countless other individuals who he inspired just by being himself. In his 90 years, he always found a way to do the things he loved, while also being the patriarch of the family. He was a father, a grandfather, a great-grandfather, a brother, a wrestler (to this day, I have never met a better arm-wrestler than my grandpa), a tortilla-maker, a salsa-maker, a gardener, a dancer, a story-teller, and a loving husband. He could do anything. But above and beyond being a great man, he was my grandfather. I will never forget his sweet smile and his gentle disposition. Anyone who came into contact with him was better off just by knowing him. I feel humbled to have his blood in me.

I spent this past week surrounded by a loving family and it made me so grateful for the support network I have around me. But no matter how much love is around, loss is a concept that is hard to wrap our minds around. It leaves us feeling empty- like a piece of us is gone and will never be found. Death may be one of the hardest things we face in life; and all we can do to cope is love harder and hope that with time, our pain lessens. Remember the memories and let the times you shared together bring you comfort. Above all, cherish every moment, find the silver linings, and do what makes you happy. Life is short and we only get one shot. Do what you love and surround yourself with people who believe in you. Find a way to make your life meaningful and appreciate every second that you have on this Earth.

Zeide, thank you for the wonderful memories and the endless love you gave to me. I hope that I can make my life as meaningful and inspiring as you did yours. I love you and I feel honored to be your grand-daughter.

❤️

“Mostly it is loss, that teaches us about the worth of things.”